random thoughts

Tonight I went down to Children's Hospital to help paint ornaments for the NICU babies. On the way there I broke into tears. It was just about a year ago I was going there for the 1st time to see my babies. They were born 12/15 so I remember going into the Hospital and seeing all the Christmas decorations. Well going there tonight and seeing all the same things hit me pretty hard. It just brought back a lot of emotions. I don't know if it's because it's been a year or my LAST babies are a year, or PMS or just that I have a soft heart and can't get those images out of my head.

I saw some pretty rough stuff down in that NICU. Things that have forever changed my minds on alot of issues. I saw families going through the hardest times of their lives. I've seen babies coming and going and parents going home without babies. It just breaks my heart. I am so Thankful that I got to take all 3 of my babies home. I still don't know why I deserve them, but I'm so glad I'm their mommy!